Dear Parker, My Sweet Sweet Angel Baby,
"If I could give you one thing in life, I would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes, only then would you realize how special you are to me." Such a honest and true statement of how I feel about you. If you could just see yourself through my eyes then you would never ever ever self-doubt yourself a bit. You would see perfection, sweetness, lovingness, funniness. All things I see every day I wake up next to you and every night I fall asleep staring at your preciousness. Every night I put you to bed, and after you fall asleep, I look into your sweet innocent angel face and say to myself "I cannot believe we made you", seriously, "we made YOU". It still amazes me that you lived inside my belly for nine months and that you came out so perfect and wonderful and everything I could dream of having in a child. YOU are my world, YOU make me a better person, YOU are the best thing (next to daddy) that has ever happened to me. YOU give me purpose, YOU give me meaning. Daddy said to me last night as I was loving on you... "No wonder he is so obsessed with you... Look at you, you are just as obsessed with him". So true. Daddy's right. I can't get enough of you. But that's what being a good mommy is all about, right?! Every good mommy feels this way I think. And to be honest, I KNOW with every ounce of my being that I am a damn good mom. I know it. I am proud of the mom I am and I think that is a good thing. I also I think I owe a lot to my own mom, because the apple oviously didn't fall far from the tree in this case. I learned everything I know on how to love a child through my parents (your grandma and papa). They are experts on parenting, and for that I am grateful. I must also tell you how proud of the Daddy your father is to you. He loves you just as much as I do, and one day you will appreciate that and not only want your mommy ALL.THE.TIME. I wish you would let your father do more for you. It is obvious that he wants to, and I know you will one day allow him to, but for now you just have a crazy obession with me and I'm okay with that. Thank you, sweet boy of mine, for being the perfect little boy for me. I love you to the moon and back and back. YOU are my angel. For always and forEVER.
A few of my all time favorite photos since you entered our lives
You were just a few days old in this gem of a picture. Still my all time favorite of my loves!
This made me cry. I am so with you on being absolutely wrapped around my angel baby's little finger. It was one of the things I was most scared of in having baby #2, what would happen to the bond between me and my boy?... But I promise you, we're just as close and obsessed with each other as we were... I just have ANOTHER baby now who I'm obsessed with as well. It just keeps getting better. Crazier, yes, but also better! :) xoxox!
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